Friday, April 27, 2012

PostHeaderIcon Growing Up Too Fast

I remember as a preteen all anxious to hurry up and become a teenager. When I finally became one the next goal was to hurry up and be 16. Of course then the goal was 18 then 21. It seems I was always wanting to grow up, get out, conquer the world. Now there are days I want to go back to those teen years, move back home and to be honest conquering the house work and laundry would be heavenly so I would have time to wash my car.  Funny how all that seemed to come back and bite me in the behind. It's also funny that no matter how old I get (and I am not saying I am old) I still feel like a little girl in a big world. I look like I have it together mainly because someone around my neck of the woods over here needs to....but on the inside I am still that unsure child wondering about her future and how things will turn out. The difference now is that I have my own teenager finding her wings. The more she stretches them the more I want to hold on to her so very tightly but I know I cannot. This life is her journey. I can only guide and pray that she makes all the very best decisions (some with my help of course for the time being).  This summer marks her first pay taxes job. She has been volunteering at the library on Wednesday Storytime and when the spot came open it was offered to her. I am so excited and proud for her.  We filled out her application this week and in the middle of it I just thought I was going to bawl like a baby.

Where did my little girl go? I am just not ready for her to be so grown up.  

This was the last week for her volunteer work until she starts her job in May. She will have her hands full helping with the Summer Reading Program. She will miss one week for a mission trip/camp with the youth at church and that almost made them change their mind but she has really impressed them and they decided she could still have the job.

I usually do not stay at the library while she volunteers so as not to intrude on her "space" and to show that I know she doesn't need a baby sitter but since this was the last day I indulged in browsing all the wonderful books. I walked out with 7 checked out. Three were cookbooks, one on Rose bush care, one nifty little one about things a used bookseller found over the years in books and two on dog and puppy care.

Afterwards we had a wonderful lunch together at a local cafe, hit the local Walmart for mostly stuff we could have done without and enjoyed a wonderful  Wednesday evening at church. 


Unknown said...

Great post! I've been through one daughter as her journey began and have another here at home getting ready to try her wings soon. Be proud, mama! You've done well!

Tiffany said...

What a wonderful story here with the comparison between yourself and your daughter. I hope she enjoys her first job.

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