Friday, February 21, 2014
Inspiration for You from CryztalRain
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Balinda (RebelChick)
I am super excited to tell you about CryztalRain's newest kit, Inspiration, available at Deviant Scrap! It's been the perfect kit to get me back into the groove of creating pages for my own albums again. It's soft and serene color palette is so very easy to work with and it's diverse and artsy enough to create traditional and art journal pages. Go grab it for your stash of wonderful "go-to" kits here in her shop at Deviant Scrap.
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Wednesday, February 5, 2014
Faith in a Fresh Start
January 27th.
It's been nine days since that Monday.
Nine days since I could not take it anymore and quit my job.
I feel so foolish in my judgement of thinking someone was my friend. As soon as the new girl W. was hired, I was booted to the curb. All my efforts of being a good coworker and friend went up in smoke. All the days of trying to educate, the extra time that I spent outside of work creating notes for some of the techy stuff and the days I worried over her (F.) and fixed a hot lunch and offered a shoulder to "lean on" were very easy to replace by a fresh face. I wish I could say I did not care but I do. My feelings are very much hurt and like I mentioned earlier, I feel completely stupid in thinking I had a coworker that had become a true friend.
Back track to the Thursday before (Jan. 23) and it's where the beginning of the end truly started...only I did not realize that then. Long story short, F. and I had a difference of opinion of where W. should be trained that day. I felt she was not ready. F felt she was. Because I disagreed, I immediately got branded the B***h of the day. I did offer a sarcastic apology addressing the fact that F. apparently was the only one "allowed" to have a bad day and to do as she wished. The atmosphere was as chilly as the weather the rest of the day. I eventually asked to leave early as we had no customers to warrant 3 employees.
It did not help that later that day I found out that F. had told someone I had already quit. I did go to work (a couple of weeks ago) and did give my notice but I had also asked her to keep that tidbit of info to herself. She promised. What happened in the meantime was that an agreement was made to cut my hours and get a raise.
So here we are again....Monday morning. I was all pleasant and thought things had blown over. People have bad days. Friends take the good with the bad especially when the bad is not very often. Apparently F. was holding a grudge. Short temper, short words and informing me "we" needed to discuss the last time we worked together. I really did try my best but there is only so much a person can take. Grow up! The last straw for me was when I asked about her telling my friend that I had quit...she denied it...to the point that she called that person a liar. Frustration, hurt feelings and just flat out being pissed off hit me all at the same time.
In that instant, I knew my place was home with my daughter being a Mama, catching her up on her home school studies, and being home to keep my house up and be the loving and not exhausted wife that my husband deserves. These are priceless and non material things that a job making minimum wage can never ever compare to. (I took a job making way less that what I am qualified to so to avoid the drama and just work a few hours. I can easily go to work tomorrow with my dialysis experience and phlebotomy license.)
So here I sit....blogging....venting....purging....and getting my life back into a sensible and balanced order. God and family first. Faith that as long as I keep God first, then everything else will fall into place.
Proverbs 3:6 - In all thy ways acknowledge him, and he shall direct thy paths.
It's been nine days since that Monday.
Nine days since I could not take it anymore and quit my job.
I feel so foolish in my judgement of thinking someone was my friend. As soon as the new girl W. was hired, I was booted to the curb. All my efforts of being a good coworker and friend went up in smoke. All the days of trying to educate, the extra time that I spent outside of work creating notes for some of the techy stuff and the days I worried over her (F.) and fixed a hot lunch and offered a shoulder to "lean on" were very easy to replace by a fresh face. I wish I could say I did not care but I do. My feelings are very much hurt and like I mentioned earlier, I feel completely stupid in thinking I had a coworker that had become a true friend.
Back track to the Thursday before (Jan. 23) and it's where the beginning of the end truly started...only I did not realize that then. Long story short, F. and I had a difference of opinion of where W. should be trained that day. I felt she was not ready. F felt she was. Because I disagreed, I immediately got branded the B***h of the day. I did offer a sarcastic apology addressing the fact that F. apparently was the only one "allowed" to have a bad day and to do as she wished. The atmosphere was as chilly as the weather the rest of the day. I eventually asked to leave early as we had no customers to warrant 3 employees.
It did not help that later that day I found out that F. had told someone I had already quit. I did go to work (a couple of weeks ago) and did give my notice but I had also asked her to keep that tidbit of info to herself. She promised. What happened in the meantime was that an agreement was made to cut my hours and get a raise.
So here we are again....Monday morning. I was all pleasant and thought things had blown over. People have bad days. Friends take the good with the bad especially when the bad is not very often. Apparently F. was holding a grudge. Short temper, short words and informing me "we" needed to discuss the last time we worked together. I really did try my best but there is only so much a person can take. Grow up! The last straw for me was when I asked about her telling my friend that I had quit...she denied it...to the point that she called that person a liar. Frustration, hurt feelings and just flat out being pissed off hit me all at the same time.
In that instant, I knew my place was home with my daughter being a Mama, catching her up on her home school studies, and being home to keep my house up and be the loving and not exhausted wife that my husband deserves. These are priceless and non material things that a job making minimum wage can never ever compare to. (I took a job making way less that what I am qualified to so to avoid the drama and just work a few hours. I can easily go to work tomorrow with my dialysis experience and phlebotomy license.)
So here I sit....blogging....venting....purging....and getting my life back into a sensible and balanced order. God and family first. Faith that as long as I keep God first, then everything else will fall into place.
Proverbs 3:6 - In all thy ways acknowledge him, and he shall direct thy paths.
Friday, January 24, 2014
Wonder Woman I Am Not!
So far, Operation "Check the Mail Daily" has been pretty successful. There's only been a few days that I have not checked it but it was because of rain or laziness, not because of the "dread." I have my "tax" box all ready for all the documents needed that have yet to come in the mail for the loveliness of tax season. This season is going to be complicated with the Obamacare going into effect - but that's a whole other story........
Another hurdle I have been working on has been work. I don't have a hard job. It's mostly just customer service which I can do in spades. It's the time invested. I went back to work November 1st, 2012 on a part-time basis. Part time as in 2 days a week. Six weeks into the job my bosses wife passed away and less than 2 weeks after that one of the other employee's had a head on collision on the way to work. He survived but was set to be out of work for months (and never returned). There were only 4 employees to start with and that included me. I then started working 3 days a week...Tuesday, Wednesday and Thursday. In between all of this, I was "trying" to homeschool. Another girl was hired in January...she immediately started having health problems, was very unreliable, quit in April (I think). That put us back to 3. Another girl who had been there 3 years quit in July. Down to 2 of us. Me and the bosses daughter. The girl that quit because of health problems came back...issues resolved and another girl was hired but only worked from July to September. Throw in me not working at all in August because of my Dad's health scare, and the fact that the bosses daughter left to go on maternity leave as soon as I came back. Work was a hot mess! The holidays were horrendous to work because the boss man did not hire any holiday help...so no days off.....not happy. The home school scenario...well....not much of it was happening....the house for the most part stayed cleaned but what did it matter...I was too exhausted to enjoy it or my family.
Two weeks ago, I had just had it. My daughter needed me, my husband deserved me not being so exhausted when he was home and I deserved to not feel so completely drained all the time, so I returned to work and gave the boss my notice. It was emotional, but it was also a decision I had prayed over...A LOT! We have since come to a compromise. I will work 2 days a week and I got a raise. Also another employee was hired to work full time and she started this past Monday. She seems nice. I hope she stays.
After the emotional breakdown with work, I now start my day off with my favorite cup. It's my favorite because of the little saying on the inside of the rim and it doesn't hurt that it the perfect size for hot chocolate. YUM!!!! Add to that my daily devotional each morning and the fact that I know in February I will have more time to devote to my family, my nerves have calmed down tremendously.
Why do we as women think we can be Wonder Woman? Why does it take getting to the edge of an emotional breakdown before we tell the world to "back off"!?!?!?!?!
Another hurdle I have been working on has been work. I don't have a hard job. It's mostly just customer service which I can do in spades. It's the time invested. I went back to work November 1st, 2012 on a part-time basis. Part time as in 2 days a week. Six weeks into the job my bosses wife passed away and less than 2 weeks after that one of the other employee's had a head on collision on the way to work. He survived but was set to be out of work for months (and never returned). There were only 4 employees to start with and that included me. I then started working 3 days a week...Tuesday, Wednesday and Thursday. In between all of this, I was "trying" to homeschool. Another girl was hired in January...she immediately started having health problems, was very unreliable, quit in April (I think). That put us back to 3. Another girl who had been there 3 years quit in July. Down to 2 of us. Me and the bosses daughter. The girl that quit because of health problems came back...issues resolved and another girl was hired but only worked from July to September. Throw in me not working at all in August because of my Dad's health scare, and the fact that the bosses daughter left to go on maternity leave as soon as I came back. Work was a hot mess! The holidays were horrendous to work because the boss man did not hire any holiday help...so no days off.....not happy. The home school scenario...well....not much of it was happening....the house for the most part stayed cleaned but what did it matter...I was too exhausted to enjoy it or my family.
Two weeks ago, I had just had it. My daughter needed me, my husband deserved me not being so exhausted when he was home and I deserved to not feel so completely drained all the time, so I returned to work and gave the boss my notice. It was emotional, but it was also a decision I had prayed over...A LOT! We have since come to a compromise. I will work 2 days a week and I got a raise. Also another employee was hired to work full time and she started this past Monday. She seems nice. I hope she stays.
After the emotional breakdown with work, I now start my day off with my favorite cup. It's my favorite because of the little saying on the inside of the rim and it doesn't hurt that it the perfect size for hot chocolate. YUM!!!! Add to that my daily devotional each morning and the fact that I know in February I will have more time to devote to my family, my nerves have calmed down tremendously.
Why do we as women think we can be Wonder Woman? Why does it take getting to the edge of an emotional breakdown before we tell the world to "back off"!?!?!?!?!
Thursday, January 9, 2014
Hello 2014
Happy New Year!
As I watched the last sunset of 2013, I was reminded of God's blessings and the grace he has shown me and mine over the past year. It was not without hardship by no means, but faith is what has brought us through and will continue to carry us through the coming year (and many more).
After standing in awe of the beauty of a simple sunset and watching as the darkness fell as the day slipped away, I was reminded by my daughter that we had plans to go see the midnight showing of The Hobbit. After working all day I definitely had to take a nap before going. I so wanted to back out of it but I made my daughter a promise that I had to keep. It would have been so very nice to have had the hubby go with us (he would have been doing the driving) but he was out of town for work so we just exchanged midnight text messages. Just another day as the wife of a lineman.
The movie was LONG but quite wonderful in our opinions. It does leave you with a cliff hanger and wishing the movie could continue on. That is the whole point I suppose, suck you in so that you will come to the third installment of the series of movies. Consider me "sucked in". LOL!
Of course after a 2 and half hour movie, what girl does not have to go to the rest room? Apparently we were the LAST ones still in the movies...my lonely little car was the only one still in the parking lot. It was freaky and a bit scary walking out. We did.....really fast and huddled up together and got into the car in Flash Gordon speed.
Breakfast was at the IHOP one block over and after the hour drive back home it was almost 4 a.m. It was all worth it to see my daughter smile and know that her Mama keeps her promises. My son was invited to go with us but he had his own plans and from the photos posted on FB, I see that he had a great time bringing in the new year.
And on that note, I will quit bending your ear and with the most sincerest wishes that you have a year filled with blessings.♥
And my God will supply every need of yours according to his riches in glory in Christ Jesus. (ESV) Philippians 4:19
As I watched the last sunset of 2013, I was reminded of God's blessings and the grace he has shown me and mine over the past year. It was not without hardship by no means, but faith is what has brought us through and will continue to carry us through the coming year (and many more).
After standing in awe of the beauty of a simple sunset and watching as the darkness fell as the day slipped away, I was reminded by my daughter that we had plans to go see the midnight showing of The Hobbit. After working all day I definitely had to take a nap before going. I so wanted to back out of it but I made my daughter a promise that I had to keep. It would have been so very nice to have had the hubby go with us (he would have been doing the driving) but he was out of town for work so we just exchanged midnight text messages. Just another day as the wife of a lineman.
The movie was LONG but quite wonderful in our opinions. It does leave you with a cliff hanger and wishing the movie could continue on. That is the whole point I suppose, suck you in so that you will come to the third installment of the series of movies. Consider me "sucked in". LOL!
Of course after a 2 and half hour movie, what girl does not have to go to the rest room? Apparently we were the LAST ones still in the movies...my lonely little car was the only one still in the parking lot. It was freaky and a bit scary walking out. We did.....really fast and huddled up together and got into the car in Flash Gordon speed.
Breakfast was at the IHOP one block over and after the hour drive back home it was almost 4 a.m. It was all worth it to see my daughter smile and know that her Mama keeps her promises. My son was invited to go with us but he had his own plans and from the photos posted on FB, I see that he had a great time bringing in the new year.
And on that note, I will quit bending your ear and with the most sincerest wishes that you have a year filled with blessings.♥
And my God will supply every need of yours according to his riches in glory in Christ Jesus. (ESV) Philippians 4:19
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- Balinda (RebelChick)
- Just an everyday girl trying to find my way in the world to live life fiercely and passionately. I was a signature tagger for several years but art journaling has replaced that passion and it feeds my soul creativiely and spiritually. I also homeschool my DD, scrapbook, play around in photography, spoil my cats and drive my hubby insane on a daily basis. My faith in the Lord helps me juggle all these blessings. I keep this blog because it makes me happy. Sometimes I blog a lot and other times it collects a little dust. Thanks for visiting and being my friend.♥